Dear Fred

I’m pretty content with my therapist…so far, it’s been a soothing, kind experience.  Blogging has started out well, hopefully I can sustain it, as this isn’t my first rodeo.  I’m learning to stop watching the news once the agitation and anger start up.  Cooking for the Lads is okay, now that they understand I won't take apathy when it’s time to plan meals.  It’s their food, not mine after all. I do my own planning for myself, such as it is.


And there are tentative plans in the works for camping in a few months, that’s one of my favorite activities. 


Now, if I could only cut down on the amount of bloody coffee I drink.

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